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Friday, July 15th, 2005
4:11 pm	I am a criminal...... Today..... just fucking sux!! I came back from bar, then this cop pulled me over.... for getting too close to the car in front of me !? that car was driving 25 on 35 !! and this cop was behind me all the time, so you tell me wut could I do, I was like a fucking sandwich between two cars !! alright.... this is not a big deal... the problem was, I had been drinking.... one and half beer. I guess I was just having a bad luck, I had exactly 0.08 alcohol in my system, so there I got handcuffed and put into back of the police car for the first time. And this is not all........ I went to the jail for three hours. God!! I hate fucking jail!! It just sux that I had to do dress in criminal clothes and do a lot finger print shits....eerrr.... I feel like I am a criminal now.... Now I have to go to court on August 15th, then I will find out if my lisence is gonna suspended or not, and.... of course, FINE.... :( (Comment on this)
Monday, July 4th, 2005
8:33 pm	Sand Bar !!!! Alright, I just had my best time this summer in Lake Wawasee. First, I went to bar with Sonyia and Katie on Friday night, it was pretty good. However, Saturday..... oh god...I was so wasted. The first time this Summer!! there is nothing better than partying at Sand bar. At first, there were only Lyle, DA, Elizabeth, Jim and Renee, but hell!! Heather suddenly popped out from nowhere!! then Lacy, Steve and Matt joined us. I was like.... YEAHHH, LET'S GET DRUNK!! I don't remember how much I drank.... we were like pouring beer on each other and shit. But... yeah, I was pretty fucked up afterward. Literally passed out for 2 hours, which I missed part of the firework as well. Sunday.... of course, Sand bar again. But this time we had more girls aboard. Don't ask me, I don't know what the fuck was going on. Girls just randomly climb on our boat!! probablly they all know Lyle or something. Oh well, I spent most of my time on boat chilling with Heather and Elizabeth, enjoyed the sun and shit....... yeah, that caused me a lot of pain afterward...... Sun burn. Anyhow... generally, I had fucking great time. I am going there again soon !!! Current Mood: happy Current Music: Keg in the closet (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
6:55 pm	much better OOooOooOOh~~ I don't know why, this weather is supposed to make people feel a bit depressed. But somehow, I feel priiiity goOoOd. Maybe I have the answer, maybe I have no regret left in me or maybe I am just wierd. But one thing I can say is..... I feel new!! July 4th is getting close...... I will be holding my keystone, driving my Camaro, getting out of Lafayette. By the time I return, I will be an alcoholic again. oops! Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
3:57 am	Outta here...... Finally..... I am out of this. I know, It doesn't feel good and it's hard, but c'mon, you just gotta face it. It just so hard to deal with this anymore. Nothing wrong being the way I used to be in first semester of Sophmore year. I had my good time, now.... I want to go back my real good time. Thx to whoever being with me all this time. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 27th, 2005
5:35 pm	this fucking sux Okay.... I was seriously mad last night, and I am still mad right now. What.. The... Fuck... is going on!!?? People start talking shit!! give me a fucking break!! Can't you guys just leave me in peace !? I always try so hard to treat my friends the best, but somehow.... if there is one little mistake, some of them just turn their back on me. Or they just think I am too nice and weak. gggrrrr...... forget about it, from now on, I will only treat people nice when they deserve to be. The rest.... I don't care if you like it or not. And.... I think a person need to give me an good explanation. That's the thing pissed me off the most. Talking bad about me from my back..... and which I have never done or said. alright.... I just wish all of these shits can be ended soon. Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 26th, 2005
12:41 pm	hot...... Okay.... this weather is getting on my nerve, cos it is too fucking hot!! I can barely standing outside for 5 seconds without sweating. ggrrrr..... anywayz, I guess cos of the weather is too hot, so I had rough time sleeping last nite. Woke up this morning found out I have Elvis' hair style...... wondering what kind of position I slept. Today I am just going to stay in my appt, play my guitar and rest. oh, Onion is coming, too, finally we have a visitor (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
6:33 pm	I am.... sorry I don't see your images in my dream anymore. The face & smile are no longer yours. Begging for your forgiveness, Somehow... it's just too late after all these years. I need to learn how to fly, how to follow my own path. Let the past become our dream, because it is no longer exist. I was waiting, and I thought I could have waited forever. However, in these seven years were just too much pain and tears. Please don't ask me why, you know the answer. My heart got no room left inside, it only gets tighter. (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
11:14 pm	ain't much Ain't much going on today.... came back from Indiana Beach with shit lof of alcohol in my system 3 in the morning. I guess I didn't eat dinner the other night, so the alcohol kicked in pretty strong. well, then I went to Indiana beach again 3 pm. I was supposed to go there with couple of friends, but they backed out. I was like.... fuck it, I am still going, better than sitting my ass in my room like my jap roomate. well, this journal is kinda random, haha, cos I just woke up from nap !! (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 18th, 2005
7:59 pm	got my guitar !! Oh well, I finally got my guitar yesterday. I thought I forget all the songs that I used to play, but it turned out pretty good. now I got something to do to kill my summer time at night. Grab that guitar Pick up that damn pick follow the strings music goes through my soul (Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
10:35 pm	Trying so hard just want to shout it out loud But the phrase just keep sinking in my mouth I know... I know they are just simple words However... It is harder than changing the world Praying to angels to give me one more chance But it's like throwing a deadly dice You have seen me walking down the street And you noticed I haven been hanging by the edge Maybe I am just not the right person But you have driven my mind crazy Like the fight between Hollyfield & Tyson The pain will never cease Til I find you again (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
11:06 pm	I know.... life always have up and down, same as emotion. There is no way we can prevent it, but think positive is the key. Bringing up the good memories while you are depressed and forcing yourself to smile. One little smile might change everything. I guess this is the best way to get away from "Virgo Disease". I didn't have good mood the whole day. Actually the day was pretty bad. I was late for work due to the wierd Mcdonald's burger on Sunday night, then I ran to the wrong library and waste a lot of time, and screwed up one important order...... which my boss wasn't happy about it. yeah.... that wasn't fun at all. But things changed a little bit after I heard Evin came back. Fucking right doggie!! there is nothing better than hanging out with your buddy while you are depressed. Of course, basketball was the shit! well, I know I am much worse than I used to be, but I had fun, and that's all I needed!! I also learned something today.... you can't force something to happen, cos you would possiblly just make it worse. so I guess this is it, I am just a bit tired of running. However, I have no regret.... it's all worth it and good memories. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
7:26 pm	wierd Okay.... this is not right.... I didn't sleep last night, due to some reasons I don't even know. Now... my body is tired, but my mind is still totally awake. It has been two days, what the fuck is going on with me !? ggrrrr.... anywayz. maybe I should try to lie down for a bit later. Hopefully I will fall as sleep. (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 12th, 2005
11:05 pm	been a long time.... it has been a long time.... from the last time I wrote my journal. It has been a long time.... that I finally have a goal in my life. But now, I still have so many confusions and uncertainties. I want to make some changes, but I am just afraid it will mess up everything I am having now. I am glad that this is summer, I have time to think, to do things and to decide. However, time won't wait for me and there ain't much time left. This is about time........ and has been a long time... warm in deep inside. Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 15th, 2005
7:13 pm	cool weekend I went to Syracuse, IN, at lyle's on Friday. It was pretty cool, except that I was lost on fucking "13 detour" and rain shit ton so that I had to drive 30 mph speed!! oh well, nevermind... Friday and Saturday night were okay... just couple of people drinking and playing pool, and a bit "cops" drama as well. However, Sunday was pretty awesome. Lacy's graduation party!!! fucking right!! oh God, Matt, Sonyia, Katie.... they all showed up, that was fun. Unfortunately I couldn't stay for long, cos I gotta drive my ass back to purdue, which is about 2 hours and 40 mins drive, but only took me less than 2 hours, tho, hahhahaha Okay, gotta work tomorrow, so I better behave, hehe... Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
6:00 pm	Moms My moms came here two days ago. Oh well, the first moment they saw me, they are not like, "ohhh~~ my baby!!" and give me hug, but....... shaking their head and dissapointed. Since the moment they saw me, they just kept telling me I shouldn't do this, shouldn't do that, this is wrong and I should change it. yeah.... for two days straight, nonstop. My biological mom was okay, but my god-mother was just crazy. They are just typical traditional Asian moms....... I have been through four cultrues in my life. Asian, Latin, Black and American..... especially now I don't hang out with Asian at all, so everything I do is just wrong for them. My god-mother kept saying I am an Asian, then I have to follow the tradition and be an Asian. Oh well, you can't blame me, can you? This is how I lived since the time I have memory! I really had a tough time communicate with them. Last night, I talked to my biological mom alone. Mother to son. I told her how I feel. She still disagreed, but she seemed understand. Cos it is not really my fault, and I don't think there is anything wrong with it. She just said I am an Asian, just try my best to follow the tradition, she won't force me. God!! Finally! at least one of them listen to me and understand how I feel. Now... they left. The truth is... I kinda wanted them to leave at first, cos they gave me so much pressure ever since they got here. But by the time they sat in the car..... I felt so bad and didn't want them to leave at all. I love them, especially my biological mom. Without her... there is no me. She has been supporting me... my tuition, everything....... God... what have I done!? Before she closed her door, I went into the car and gave her a hug and a kiss goodbye. I could see her face with full of suprise.... you know, traditional asians they don't do hugging and kissing stuffs. I know we have some problems communicate with each other.... but, she is my mom, and will always be. I love her, and I will always love her. Nothing can change it. Current Music: Mother's Arm- Joshua Kadison (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
11:49 pm	damn sleepy finally, I finished all of my finals. Cheer for the summer!! but now.... I am so tired. I have been awake for the past 49 hours. maybe it is time for me to go sleep and stop typing..... Let's party hard tomorrow!!! haha Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: two steps behinde (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
4:17 pm	Grand Prix!! Okay, this weekend is the "Grand Prix". Oh dear sweet lord.... of course we do nothing but drinking and having fun. DA and Jim came down to Purdue Friday evening. Oh well, whenever DA is here, then you know wut's gonna happen. Of course "Get Trashed" with his Tasty Tree. We had a small party at Lyle's. It is pretty small, but I had a lot of fun. Later on, Andres Uno y Dos and Alejandro showed up, then we decided to go to Hookah until 4:30 in the morning....... yeah, mistake, cos I had to wake up 7:30 for the breakfast club. I had some fun this morning, but also a lot of drama. =.= Oh well, tonite is the nite!! hehe.... doesn't matter how tired I am, I will still have to put myself together and drink the shit lot of alcohol for my damn Grand Prix. XD Current Mood: excited Current Music: Rock you like a hurricane- Scorpions (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
6:07 pm	my computer died on me!! My computer died on my this morning........ wtf. I had to format my harddrive to make it run again, but the most important thing is.... I couldn't run backup for all of my files and songs!! Now all of my 80's rock, techno, country.... musics are all gone! eerrr.... Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
9:33 pm	安靜... 今天, 心口又隱隱做痛. 我知道我不該再多想, 也不該再留戀.....畢竟是我這生命中第二個喜歡上的人. 想起我們曾在一起的時間, 我所牽過的手. 現在.... 她已經慢慢離開, 也表現的非常明白. 我也開真的慢慢走開. 希望他是真的比我還愛妳. 如同歌詞所說的..... 我會學著放棄妳, 是因為我太愛妳. Current Music: 安靜- Jay Chou (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
1:42 pm	no title.... It is end of school year, many things happened and changed, not just me, but also many people around me. Some are good, some are bad, but it is life, just gotta learn to accept it. For the past 21 years, I have been hiding myself in the shadow and I still do. But I am learning how to get out of it, just need some time. Just talked to my buddy, Ethan, in taiwan online. yeah.... he said I am a fool. But well, now, I guess no one is depressed, sad, angry or crying anymore, I think. So now... it is time to get away from it for a bit. It might take a little time, but sooner or later I will be the original Eric, "The Asian", once again. Where is the Kegger !!?? Let's party hard once again before the the end of school year!!!! Before you bastards leave my lonely ass here in Lafayette!! XD Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: This ain't love song- Bon Jovi (Comment on this)